Filler up!

Filler up! |

“I’ve had so much plastic surgery, when I die they will donate my body to Tupperware.” – Joan Rivers

Filler up! |

Lincoln Bra Top – Aritzia | Jamie Jeans – Topshop | Sissel Ankle Cuff Sandals – Pedro Garcia | Necklace (similar here) | Drawstring Tote (similar here)

Sigh. As I look in the mirror for the upteenth time, I can’t help but focus on the sad hollows that are deepening under my eyes, making me look like the only thing I’m dominating is insomnia.

To add insult to injury, the hollows are topped off with a nice, eggplant-charcoal colour that is really better suited to a pair off kick-ass thigh high boots than my under eyes.  “Should I do it?” I ask myself. I reach for my phone to call the well-regarded medispa that reached out to me…offering me youth in a syringe in exchange for promotion. Kardashian-like smoothness and Benjamin Button-ness with a few quick pricks of a needle is only a short phone call away.

N-E-E-D-L-E. That’s all my brain has to register before I drop my phone, my blood running cold at the thought of somebody stabbing me near my eyeballs, depositing some organic substance onto my orbital bone, which could go either way…making me look like I got a year’s worth of sleep, or making me look like poor Jocelyn Wildenstein.

I’m also worried about the “social aspect” of getting plumped up. Surely, someone will notice online or in person, squinting their eyes at me while thinking: “SHE DID IT. OMG. I’M TELLING EVERYONE!” There is also the fact that in my community – the black community – “we don’t do this”. Black don’t crack! You crazeh, boo!  Sigh.

I’ve shelved this idea….for now. It will rear its smooth, shiny, hollow-free head again when my silly insecurities get the best of me. For now, I’ll choose the cheaper option of getting more damn sleep and drinking a ton of that stuff that doesn’t taste like Châteauneuf-du-Pape…you know, water.

What are your thoughts on fillers? Have you taken the plunge?



  1. Sophia
    June 29, 2016 / 11:58 am

    Hi Dominique,

    I wouldn’t do it. There generally seems to be some issue down the road with fillers.

    I’m sorry to hear that you still have this problem. Tough one because dark circles also come with high pollen counts due to inflammation in the nasal passage. There are some great essential oils that people find helpful, have you tried any?
    Here’s some home remedies for you to try.

    Almond Oil (this is best because it contains high quantities of vitamin K, Palmatic acid and Retinol. Use cold presses, organic and eat almonds as a booster – 10 per day), Eucalyptus Oil, Witch Hazel, Rose and Sandalwood Oi, Chamomile (drink this at bedtime).

    • Dominique
      June 29, 2016 / 1:17 pm

      Hey Aunt Sophie! So, this is exactly what the doctor at a local clinic told me. She said to sort out my allergies first and then come back. I’m going to try getting my allergies under control this summer. If it doesn’t work, I may just take the plunge as I’m sick of looking tired!

      What I’m truly fearful of is that some people look like the filler has hardened…leading to a rough, uneven appearance. That really terrifies me!

      Take care – love you!

  2. June 29, 2016 / 5:04 pm

    I personally don’t know much about fillers but I say do what makes you happy and do your research if you decide to go for the fillers.. (Stating the obvious lol) can you get temporary fillers? Maybe that’s an option to see how you react to them first. But you’re gorgeous and your figure is great! Love the all white look and the slight pop of colour 🙂

    • Dominique
      July 4, 2016 / 11:55 am

      Hi Shamilla! Thanks for your comment! Yes – the fillers I’ve inquired about are indeed temporary…but still last two years. That’s a long time to wait for the results to disappear if something goes wrong. There are fillers out there whose results can be dissolved if something goes wrong with enzymes…but unfortunately, the one recommended for me does not have that option.

      Thanks for the outfit compliment. I’m really embracing white outfits!

  3. June 29, 2016 / 5:38 pm

    I don’t have much experience with fillers as a college-aged student, but I have to say.. you look flawless! White on white is my favorite for the summer!!! xx

    • Dominique
      June 30, 2016 / 10:13 am

      Aww Victoria! You are too kind! Thank you for your kind words. Take care of yourself now and you won’t ever have to worry about this stuff! LOL! xoxoxoxox

  4. June 29, 2016 / 8:44 pm

    You have a way with words, brilliantly written and expressed. I’m so sorry that you have having these problems and I pray it gets sorted out for you x

    • Dominique
      June 30, 2016 / 10:12 am

      Thank you for your kind words! I absolutely LOVE creative writing. The problems are minor…”First World Problems”, if you will!

    • Dominique
      June 30, 2016 / 10:12 am

      Thank you so much, Jennifer! Those shoes are soooo comfortable. Words cannot describe! Pedro Garcia is known for making high heels that feel like comfy running shoes! xoxox

  5. June 29, 2016 / 9:38 pm

    I’ve contemplated surgery for other reasons, but I’ve always talked myself out of it. I always feel like I’m being hateful of myself for considering it.

    • Dominique
      June 30, 2016 / 10:11 am

      I understand. I struggle more with the procedures going awry. I love myself a lot…I just want to love what I see in the mirror completely. Nothing wrong with that. ;o) Thanks for reading!

  6. June 30, 2016 / 2:52 am

    Omg Dominique ! I have the same problem as your I don’t no how to get rid of it! The worst part is its increasing! I have to go to a doctor as soon as possible! Btw! I really love your shoe and the outfit looks fantastic! ?

    • Dominique
      June 30, 2016 / 10:10 am

      Thank you so much for your kind comments! I’m with you. I had no idea how to get rid of the dark circles so I started doing some research. Looks like fillers is the best option. More sleep and boosting water intake helps too, but not entirely….

  7. June 30, 2016 / 4:24 am

    You look beautiful! I would’ve never thought you looked like all these things you just described!
    – Jessica
    Miss Moore Style

    • Dominique
      June 30, 2016 / 10:09 am

      Awww thank you! You know when you wake up in the morning sometimes, look in the mirror and sometimes wonder “Do I really look like that?” I was having one of those days! LOL! Thanks for reading!

  8. June 30, 2016 / 8:58 pm

    Hi Dom,
    I would say exhaust all alternative means before you decide to go for the fillers and also make sure to way the pros and cons. Your style of writing is amazing, I wish could write that well.

    • Dominique
      July 4, 2016 / 11:50 am

      Awww Vanessa! You are too kind. I really, really enjoy creative writing and always toy with the idea of starting a creative writing blog. I’m already brainstorming my “annual” Halloween scary story series! Thank you so much! Word got back to my mom and aunts so, yeah….looks like I definitely AIN’T gettin’ fillers any time soon. LOL!

  9. July 1, 2016 / 8:08 am

    Loving this all white outfit and those pink heels! I personally wouldn’t do fillers unless absolutely necessary due to horror stories I’ve heard. You can have great success with research though, which I definitely recommend 🙂

    • Dominique
      July 4, 2016 / 11:45 am

      I totally agree with you. I’m a little scared due to being a little uninformed, so I will research away in order to make the best decision. Thank you for your kind compliments! Really enjoying all white outfits!

    • Dominique
      July 4, 2016 / 11:51 am

      Thank you so much! I will definitely research away to make an informed decision!

  10. July 4, 2016 / 1:49 pm

    you looks very cute in this outfit 😀

    • Dominique
      July 5, 2016 / 1:36 pm

      Thank you!

  11. July 5, 2016 / 2:34 pm

    Does approval matter? On the other hand why would social congruence matter?

    • Dominique
      July 6, 2016 / 9:26 am

      Good point, my luv. I’m human and every now and then I can’t help but conform. LOL! I hope you are well!!

  12. Don
    July 5, 2016 / 5:49 pm

    I don’t know if the boys should weigh in on this one as I can’t imagine too many of us considering such a procedure but I agree with the idea of exhausting the natural alternatives first. You’re beautiful as you are and I say don’t do it.

    Cheers Dom!

    • Dominique
      July 6, 2016 / 9:26 am

      Awww – you’re the best, Donnie. Thank you!

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